Tuesday, October 18, 2016

Mommy Dairies - 5

Dear Daughter,

I want you to remember the date yesterday. Because I really want you to remember how brave you have been yesterday. Really and quite literally. Several years from now on , when you read this , I want you to remember this.

You are one of the bravest people I have ever seen in my life. Quick to move on from any situation and not let it bother you much. Well , that's how you make it look. Don't really know what goes on in your deeper mind. Yesterday you had an appointment with the dentist because one of you upfront teeth in the lower jaw was infected and you were complaining of pain the whole weekend. We tried to look for a dentist who works on the weekend everywhere , but this country , pheww , we found no one. So there you were at the dentist office along with your daddy. Mommy was at work , blindly believing that all will be well and the teeth wouldn't need to come out. But mommy got a call from daddy at around 10 a.m and his voice was worried. Both the front teeth were rotten and they needed to be taken out as soon as possible , because your permanent teeth were already ready deep down in the gum and we couldn't risk infecting those. You cant imagine my panic my baby girl , I literally dropped everything and ran to come and be with you.I was so worried about how you would take the pain. I know what it feels as I also had to get a tooth out when I was a child and still keep battling with that "filled n" permanent tooth. By the time I reached , you were sitting on the couch and drinking water. I instantly hugged you and I was really praying that I take that pain instead of you. They tried giving you some laughter gas to create a illusion but you resisted a lot. So , they gave an oral syrup to calm you down and probably get you to sleep. But you resisted and didnt want to sleep for a long , long time. You knew that the moment you slept , something was going to be done to your teeth. So you didn't sleep. Clever  you , really. Such a fighter you are. After almost 2 hours , you finally gave up and slept. But the moment we took you to the chair where the doctor was supposed to see you , you woke up and resisted with eyes closed. Every part of you was aware of the stress and they just couldn't give you the injection to numb your gum. The other doctor was talking to us that the only other option is to give you anesthesia and was talking us into booking an appointment later in the week , but the actual doctor came in and asked me this. Should we just take e chance ? Its only going to take about 20 seconds to pull both the teeth out , so should we just go ahead and hold you down and just get it done and save you all the trouble of that intravenous sedative and all that.

We couldn't see you struggling my baby girl and we knew that it would be a lot more trauma to come back again later. So we just went by and held you down and go the teeth out. I am so sorry dear baby girl that you had to go through that. The procedure affected me and your daddy more than you can imagine. We were visibly shaken and I couldn't sleep that night.

But YOU were so brave. yes , you went through it without any sedation, but within an hour , you were calm and wanted to move on. You just wanted to go out and play , even though you haven't eaten a morsel of food in the last 4 hours. So we let you be and sent you to zoo lake with Maggie with a flavored yogurt. By the time you came back , you had a smile on your face , my baby girl. That's the first smile in the whole day and my heart was really relieved. You were so brave my baby and mommy is so so proud of you. Remember to have the same fighting spirit always. There you go , a pic of the teeth that came out. That night you put it under your pillow and went to sleep. And the next morning , the tooth fairy had replaced them with small presents :-). And today , you are just fine and all set to go to school. When Maggie came in , you were so excited and showed her what the tooth fairy gave you and you kept blushing that taking off the teeth was such a good thing to happen !

Dear Amma,
I really understand what you truly meant in every sense , bit by bit with the experiences I have with Mahati. The constant concern , the constant nagging and the constant rules , I never understood them before. But now I understand them , all of them and the feelings behind them. It is so true that the respect for your mother becomes only better after you have a child of your own. I really never understood the dramatic movie scene dialogues that you used to throw at me( us in fact ) , asking me to come home early , asking me to be careful and looking at me whenever I dress up. You are never open enough to show how much you loved me and always love me , but now I understand the thousands of feelings hidden in your looks and behind each of your constant bragging :P ;-). I am only able to understand it because I have a child of my own.